Is It the Job or Is it Me?

Is it the job or is it me. I wonder and wonder and come home with the feeling of should a job be something you regret going to everyday. I know there are people out there that hate there jobs but are there people like me who really hate their job with such a passion that they get up every morning praying to God to make the pain go away and leave their job every afternoon feeling sick to the point that all they want to do is go home and cry their eyes out. I have really tried finding something good about my job but can not. The reason being because we have so many hateful, sneaky, back stabbing, vicauous, lying, and self centered people. I have never work with any company in all my life that allowed so much hatered and insane issues to go on. We have a thing were if you are not in with a certain group of managers or office personal then you are an outsider and you can not get the extra benefits that comes with being and insider. We who are the outsiders work and work and do what is expected of us, we come into work on time, we work when we are suppose to, we do not miss anytime and yet we do not receive any acknowledgement of our good work and the ones that miss time, leave early, take extra days off and follow none of the rules and make up their own rules get all the perks and is made out to be the only people who are doing anything at the company. I love myself and I love my family. I have wonder that is it because I show and gleem that my life with my family is great that this is something that these people can not understand or is jealous of so they try and make my time on the job itself misserable. People ask me why do I not leave but I have been trying to leave, I am constantly putting in for other jobs and I pray one day something will come through for me. I am saying a prayer that is about hope and courage everyday and hope that God will help me through what is a struggle in my life. For now I listen to the song in my head while working, Hold on a Change is coming, hold on everything is going to work out fine.